He spoke today in Pensacola, 15 mins from my house.  Cyndi and I watched him on tv, during that time, I registered to vote.  There's no point in complaining and having an opinion, if your not going to do something about it and voice that opinion.  Bush was speaking in Pensacola and then his entorage was taking the road in front of my house from pensacola to niceville.  He was going right in front of my house.  Cyndi and I went outside and stayed out there for about 45 mins before the president went by.  Right before he got there 2 helicopters landed next to us and military police got out with guns, then it started to rain and they left, then the pres drove by, we got soaked, but it was worth it.  I really feel like he was going to stop, they wouldnt have landed the MP unless.  We saw him wave at us.  It was so amazing.  I dont agree with all of Bushs' beliefs, but I do agree with most of them.  Cyndi was very excited at what was going on.  She waved at all the cars going by before the president got here and waved at the president as he passed.  She said "Go Bush" a few times.  

  God Bless America, and America, Bless God!

Ok, so I havent posted here in a while.  NOt that many people read this, I am sure.  Sorry been busy with school and finals and all that crap!  I passed my math class, (FINALLY!) and I passed my Keyboarding class...so hopefully just that will pull me out of academic probation, bc unless I make a 80+ on my 3rd test and a 100 on my final, I will be barely making it!  And making those grades for that teacher is a long shot.  The man went to hong kong in the middle of the semester.  HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PASS A CLASS WHERE THE TEACHER IS ON VACATION FOR A MONTH!?!!??  Any way, it is now less than 2 months untill my child is going to be 2.  Kinda depressing as that really means she isnt a baby anymore.  But I guess that comes with being a mom. 

The last few weeks havent been very emotionly perfect.  Dont get me wrong, the world never fell off of it axis, but little things are just setting me off.  I guess its bc AF was here and all that, I should be back to normal soon.  

One of my friends is going through a divorce.  She is very young.  She acts like it is a game, and that it is fun, she wants to shout it out, and let everyone know.  And she jokes about it a little too much.  And you could say "maybe she is just trying to make the best of a bad situation" or "maybe thats just how she is dealing with it" but its kinda like she brags about it.  Oh well, I support her either way, it just worries me.  

We have made a great friends up here (finally to that too!).  We really enjoy their company and I think they enjoy ours too.  And if not,they fake it pretty good LOL. 

Well, here I am rambling, I will post again tomorrow, that is, if anything interesting happens.

~MDH

Ok so maybe I am feeling a tad creative, considering I am using a right align for this (this is odd to do btw).

First and formost.

Please, allow myself to introduce myself.  My name is cyndismom, those of you who know me know me, and those of you who dont, I shall go by cyndismom.  I am the GREAT age of 21.  You know, the age where still no one takes you seriously.  But, such is life.  I am married to silverdreams, which I am sure if my aunt convinces him to get a blog to, that is what he will go by.  He is 23.  I call him Yankee Doodle Dandy, being that he was "born on the fourth of July" HAHA he is oging to kill me.  We have a daughter, if you havent guessed her name yet, I recomend that you stop right here and go back to the top and start reading again.  She will be 2 at the end of September.  I have 2 cats, Calli and Dash.  They are nuts, but I love them just the same.  We also have a dog, Abbie.  She is the coolest dog ever! (no offense Jaike, if you're reading this)  She is an Australian Cattle Dog.  Kinda like a Dingo, only not wild.  LOL.  She is so sweet and so B-E-A-U-tiful.  She doesnt live with us though bc the evil apartment war lords wont allow her.  She lives with hubbys mom.  Which is cool, I am so glad we didnt have to give her away to never get her back.  (yes i am the best at rambling, but you wanted to read this so deal) 

Right now I am counting down the days till we can live in a house.  I hate this apartment.  I need a place for my child to go outside and run and play and I dont have that here.  I am also quite tired of my car.  My MIL payed it off so I think I should keep for a while, at least till next January, if it lasts that long.  My dream car right now is a 2000+ VW New Beetle, Turbo, Sapphire Blue Metalic, with sunroof and cde player.  No I am not picky, and you can get that exact car!  Hubby says I am crazy, but he doesnt have to drive the Alero everyday, so he doesnt understand, but I also see his point.  More on this later.

Right now I am in college, on probation with the school.  I am hoping that these teachers I have wont kill me and make me have to drop out, please keep that in your prayers.  I have decided my major.  Zoology.  I want to be a giraffe keeper.  Or whatever it is you call them.  I cant take any zoology classes untill next fall (2005) but I think it will be worth the wait.

Hubby is fixing to get his MCSE certificate, which is so awesomely cool.  His mom is also paying to get his car totally fixed and looking show quality again.  He was wanting to sell it bc he doesnt have the money for it but bc it was his sisters I wouldnt let him.  I was going to try to get some money together for it to get fixed at least part way as a surprise for his bday but no one had the money for it.  I ended up getting him nothing and felt horride about it bc I dont think I even got him anything for Fathers Day.

Well, now onto extended family.  I am really only close to my Mom and my Aunt and her family.  Their bro and sis kinda dont like me no matter how many times they try to say they dont.  If they did, where the hell are they? you know!?!  thier other brother i dont see or talk to much.   But I know that he loves me .  My dad and "his family" I like to call it are another story.  There was a point where  I was calling him by his first name.  I didnt think he deserved the title "dad" or anything like it.  Then it got really bad and I called him my sperm donar.  Which isnt funny I guess, but its how I felt.  His wife is, well we wont go into what she is.  She is tolerable, we will say that.  I have 4 sisters (to keep it less confusing, 2 step - Amber, 19 (we have same bday 2 yrs apart) and Teri, 18 (they are real sisters from stepmoms first marriage.  and 2 Half sisters - Bethany, 6 and Hannah, 1 (they are my dad and stepmoms)so thats that).  That whole side is screwed up.  It would take a seriously long time to explain it all.  But to make a long story short, I have been beaten down by them, and I seriously doubt they even know it.  I have been weighed down with guilt and troubled with lies that I can do nothing about.  I hated it when I was "little" and everyone always said "She is so mature for her age" or "She is _ going on 30"  I just wanted to be a kid.  But the older I get the more I discover that I am wiser than my years.  I have been through more than most people my age, and yet I could find people worse off than me.  But it makes no mind. 

(depressed yet?)

I really am happy with my family that I do talk to and do have a relationship with, but there is so much that lies underneath it all that pulls me back into the depths.  I try to keep it quiet, but sometimes when certain things happen, theres no holes bared.  Such is life i supose.

Ok, I will let your eyes rest, will write more tomorrow.

Good Night Everyone in "MyLand"